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[Dec. 14th, 2008|12:10 am] |
moved
new name is Pandash
add it if you want to |
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[Oct. 16th, 2008|12:23 am] |
SUP.
Livejournal is so boring. I have nothing to complain about. I'm happy. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2008|03:12 pm] |
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Casper is much much better. I'm so so glad cause now he has to keep Dad company. I've moved in with James now.. 3 weeks i've been there. It's really awesome. He's off this week to Orkney to see his grandad who isnt well :( so i'll miss him very much while he's gone. It's strange living with a boy. I shall have to take pictures. |
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| My beautiful Casper cat |
[Aug. 9th, 2008|03:19 pm] |
Casper is the bestest cat in the world.
Yesterday my dad accidently hurt him when he reversed into our driveway and now my poor Casper cat only has a 50/50 chance of recovery.
His tail shows no sign of movement, so will most likely need to be removed.
He has arthritis in his back paws and although he is walking, this doesn't help.
The nerves that send the signal to his brain telling him he needs to go to the toilet have been damaged, which means the vets need to do that for him. Obviously if these nerves aren't fixed then we wont be able to do it for him, so he'll need to be put down.. I am truly devastated. I need my little Casper cat to pull through. :( Urgh god, please let him pull through. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2008|10:35 pm] |
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yeeesssss moving in with james yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees :D |
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| I'm happy. |
[Oct. 4th, 2007|10:14 pm] |
I understand why you're looking for tears in my eyes..
And trust me, they were there, but now.. the well has run dry..
I was in so deep i couldn't get out..
I sat on feelings that i buried deep down..
I knew there'd come a day when our paths would cross..
And i'm glad it's today.
Cause now i am strong.
I'm happy.
And i can thank myself.
If it were up to you, i'd be in my bed - crying.
I'm happy.
And i know that makes you sad.
After all the things you put me through..
I'm finally getting over you.
There's a reason why we met.
And i'm glad that we did.
Yeah, i am.
But when we broke up, i got back a part of me..
I really missed.
Not saying that you brought me down all the time..
There were moments i lived without light on my side..
I'm happy.
And i can thank myself.
If it were up to you, i'd be in my bed - crying.
I'm happy.
And i know that makes you sad.
After all the things you put me through..
I'm finally getting over you.
All the bitterness has passed.
And i only wish you..
Someone who..
Can do what i can't. |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2007|11:15 pm] |
I can't believe it's really you..
Been so long.
You look good.
I hear you're doing really well..
Don't ask me.
Let me tell you..
How I been since when you left..
Since you left me for dead.
Finally every tear has dried..
I've wiped you
From my life.
Do you remember all the times you said you'll call me?
Cos I remember all the reasons people warned me..
And now I hear you saying that you still adore me..
But if you think I'd ever get with you again..
Then you can just..
Love me, love me, feed the flame..
If you want me back again..
Burn to the sky..
Higher and higher..
Baby, Can You Play With Fire?
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[Jun. 9th, 2006|11:29 pm] |
The last girl and the last reason to make this last for, as long as I could..
First kiss and the first time, that I felt connected to anything..
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned..
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love..
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[Jun. 6th, 2006|12:40 am] |
from now on.. this journal is..
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[Jun. 2nd, 2006|12:14 am] |
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| | Incubus - The Warmth (live) | ] |
♥ The Mind: Your Bastarding Best Friend ♥
So whats with the mind?
Why does it make you fucked up?
why everything that happens, do we have to analyze?
Why do we here that little voice in our heads?
(because no matter what anyone says, we always have that voice in our heads nagging away)
So yes. the mind is the bastarding friend whispering in your head, fucking with your feelings, fucking with your emotions, making you doubt yourself.
ITS ALL YOU MIND
ALL OF IT.
so what the fuck you gonna do?
listen to your main blood pumping internal organ?
<.<
its so stupid, when people say LISTEN TO YOUR HEART.
yes. listen to it.
*dumdum.. dumdum... dumdum..*
'what did it tell you?'
'it told me it missed being in that ghanian drum ensemble back in jamaica.'
so what makes our decisions, if its not that aeortic pump?
is it, infact, SHOCKEROO: OUR HEADS? O= O= O=
oh my god. theres something we didnt see coming.
=p
you have three main ways of thinking.
Logically.
Ilogically.
Or just plain stupidly.
sometimes that voice in your head will do your fucking nut in..
but in the end, you wouldnt be anywhere without it.
who else would you talk to when you're alone?
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[May. 10th, 2006|11:41 pm] |
You know, when i sit here typing away to myself on my little laptop, in different parts of my house i always feel like asking myself:
'What would Carrie do?'
=p
So todays question is to do with something alot of little girls dream about..
♥ Can We Ever Have That Fairytale Ending? ♥
Whats with the complexity of life?
We should all just live in caravans and not have bills and then we'd be as happy as Larry.
[I always wonder when people say that 'who the hell is Larry?'.. random.]
You know, i love disney and fairytales and everything as much as the next girl: but its not going to happen is it?
Is there really one perfect person for everyone?
Is there truely someone out there who fits you like a jigsaw puzzle and who seems to make perfect sense to be with?
What do we mean by the 'fairytale' ending anyway?
Every fairytale ends with the 'Happily ever after' approach; but why did we never see how the marriage turned out?
I mean sure, 'happily ever after' sounds self-explanitory, but no one actually said it meant no arguements.
People can live happily and still argue. Its a human function we can't help but carry out.
Old cinders mopping away there never stopped to say 'hey, give me space, mate. I met you like a minute ago.'
I mean come on! fairytales seem to be about womens place in the home or the kitchen.
Theres nothing about equal rights!
Fairytales discriminate against women.
And yet we love them.
Very few of us would like to be slaves to our partners..
So maybe.. just maybe..
we have to create our own fairytale.
Maybe we should get out our pens and paper and create our own best-seller.
Your life is like a book.
It is what you make it.
And although you may make mistakes..
Most can be tippexed.
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[May. 4th, 2006|12:23 am] |
♥ The Parent: Friend or Foe? ♥
Can children ever be friends with their parents?
Is there ever an actual bond that links you as friends as opposed to family?
A bond that lets you share everything without them going mad?
Do they actually mean it when they say 'You Can Tell Me Anything!'?
Most kids i know hate their parents.
Whats with that? Do parents ACTUALLY just forget what its like to be a kid?
But some kids.. have something.. that none of us seem to understand.
They claim to be friends with their parents.
Now, for some reason, when one of my friends tell me he/shes told her mum or dad everything..
about every person shes interested in, or every secret.. then i think.. 'what the fuck?'
For some reason in this day and age, its abnormal to have a good relationship with our parents.
So how do we right this wrong?
Personally, i think our generation (excluding neds) will make good parents.
Most of us have come to an acceptance with sexualitys other than straight, which will make it easier to accept if one
of our children decide to tell us they arent straight.
Most of us have a laid back attitude on life.
However, the worrying thing about our generation is the amount of alcohol most of us consume before we're even 16.
Or the number of people smoking from young ages.
With alcohol and smoking being major sperm killers.. are we ever going to HAVE kids?
Where the hell are all the sensible teenagers going to?
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[Apr. 13th, 2006|10:09 pm] |
♥ So Whats The Deal With Family? ♥
So ive been staying out of the house these last few days.
Ive been at my grans on tuesday night, and now, wednesday night, much to my surprise, my mother's.
To be honest, if you had said to me six months ago id be staying even one night with her, i would have laughed in your face
and told you otherwise.
But once again ive surprised myself.
My sister made me realise something.
I know that no matter what, im going to spend my life giving her second chances.
Even if she fucks me over really badly, or scars me for life (not that she hasn't already), i can't help but forgive her.
She's my mom.
She's always been there.
And i know without her, i wouldn't be lost.. but a part of me would be missing.
Something Amanda said about her Dad, made me wonder if im the same with my mom.
Maybe i see her as a bad person because she upsets me.. but maybe its just that we're so alike that we clash.
I don't know if thats a bad thing, that im like her.
Maybe its only a bad thing if im faced with someone exactly like me in every way.
Im not really sure how things are going to go with my mom.
But i guess mystery isnt always a bad thing.
Maybe if i knew i wouldn't be willing to give her a chance.
Haha.
-------- I READ HOLLIE'S LIVEJOURNAL AND ALL I GOT WAS THIS LOUSY TYPED MESSAGE --------
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[Apr. 8th, 2006|01:36 am] |
♥ Is It Possible To Be 100% Happy? ♥
Is life designed to smack us in the face the second we feel happy?
Can happiness last?
Well evidently, no.
Apparently, as i have recently discovered, whenever you start to think you're going to be ok, and you might just get that fairytale ending afterall, either the wicked witch with the poison apple comes along, or the dwarfs start to get on your nerves with their complaints that you left them, or, more likely, the prince doesnt come for you.
if its the latter, then sooner or later, you're going to end up gettng plain tired of waiting in your glass case for the prince that you get up and either:
A) Make the first move and find him yourself, to make it plain you're not waiting around like sleeping beauty.
or
B) find the bastard, punch him like theres no tomorrow and then get yourself a job, since theres no princey to support you now.
And no matter what, you and the prince arent always going to be happy as larry.
That poison apple bitch will find a way to get you somehow.
But back to the point.
Life is never.. 100% good.
There is always something preventing you from being happy.
oh, and a question linked to the happiness topic:
Q: Does Money Buy You Happiness?
A: No. But It Sure Helps.
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| Mortal Kombat!! |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|10:23 pm] |
♥ Why Do We Have Such Ridiculous Fears? ♥
As humans we are designed to have fears and pet peeves.
But why do we have tiny fears that are so stupid?
For instance, today, Amanda and i were in school till later, and the lights in the science corridor were out, and no one was about, so it was silent.
Now, why, when we were in a school, which had alot of people in it (just not in the science department), were we scared of the dark?
Perhaps because dark is associated with horror and scaryness?
Maybe if stupid fuckers didnt make horror films, no one would have irrational fears!
Do you think that if you're scared of something as a child, you're scared all your life?
And do you think parents are being selfish when they pass on fears to kids? =p shouldn't they encourage them to believe there isnt anything to be scared about?
ooft. parents suck. =p
i have a fear of lifts because of me maww xD
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| I Hurt Myself Today.. To See If I Still Feel.. |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|02:13 pm] |
♥ Can There Be Life Without Paranoia? ♥
Yeah, for pets maybe.
But in reality Paranoia is an everyday part of human functions.
Sometime paranoia gets to a level where you can't trust anybody.
Everyone is out to get you.
You're alone.
Paranoia in relationships is also a strange way of proving that you care for someone..
you care for them so much that you think you arent good enough and someone better than you will come along and sweep them off their feet.
But even if you love that person more than anything.. it's far too difficult to stop being paranoid.
which leads me to..
Is there a cure for paranoia?
I wish.
The only cure is to confront the thing you are most scared of, and ask yourself..
'Why am i scared of this?'
When you know why you're scared..
That is the beginning of the end.
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| I Am Human And I Need To Be Loved.. |
[Mar. 24th, 2006|12:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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♥ Wouldn't It Be Good To Have Magical Powers? ♥
Think about it; im talking magical powers that dont have consequences like in Charmed.
So what if you had magical powers? What would you use them for?
Well the answer is simple.
To make your everyday life better.
To manipulate people to act how you want them to act.
But would people acting how you want them to act be such a good thing?
Would you get bored of having the perfect life?
No arguements, no nothing.. just.. perfection.
As much as maybe you wish arguements didn't happen..
I bet you wouldn't wish for a world without them.
How on earth would people grow up and become mature, if there were no obsticles in the way?
to be honest i don't know why i decided to write this <.<.. no i havent had a fight with steven or anything. i just.. dunno. it made sense. =p
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| Make Us It, Make Us Hip, Make Us Scene.. |
[Mar. 23rd, 2006|01:30 pm] |
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♥ I Made My Journal A Bit Pretty.. ♥
People Should Look. <3
Chii is quite gorgeous. =p
I was going to post random pictures but photobuckets down. ):
anyway. yah.
another time.
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| Why Don't You Walk Away? |
[Mar. 23rd, 2006|02:33 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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so i have a..
SEPTIC THROAT.
or strep throat. its other name.
which by medical definition is..
uh.. i dunno.. hold on.. <.<
Strep throat is a contagious disease caused by infection with streptococcal bacteria. Strep throat symptoms include fever, pain, redness, and swelling of the throat and tonsils. Strep throat may produce mild or severe symptoms
>.>
yuus.
score.
haha. streptococal bacteria.
(:
THEYR LIVING IN MEE.
theres little lumps at the back of my throat and apparently poison from them is going through meee. v.v
an thats why i should be utterly crap and lying in bed with sore tummys an that >.>
but im not. <.<
doctor said i looked surprisingly upbeat for a person with it xD
muha.
take that streptococal bacteria.
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